The fact that I have a blog called "Food: My Drug of Choice" tells you I have an obsession with food, weight, and everything in between... making the story I'm about to tell you seem even more odd.
Earlier this week, one of my co-worker/friends asked me if I had noticed she was losing weight. Before even answering the question she responded, "I know, I know - you don't notice those kinds of things." My thought, What? I don't notice those kind of things? haha, I don't notice those kind of things? I notice if a person puts on or takes off half of a pound, so when my friend loses 7 pounds - I promise I notice.
But since moving and making a new set of friends I've been "faking it." I say I exercise because it makes me handle stress. I say I eat when I'm hungry and stop when I'm not. I say I don't count calories or weigh myself. I say the key is to eating what you feel like eating. I guess you can call it lies, but really it's the person I want to be. I'm faking to so I can make it.
I don't want to talk about eating too much and gaining too much weight - it feeds into my addiction. Instead, I want to be a new person - I want to be a person that doesn't obsess, that is just confident in the way I look, the way I feel. So that's who I'm pretending to be, with the hope that I'll eventually get there.
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I say whatever works! I should try this approach:)
Sometimes, reinvention is the key to moving forward. If faking it is helping you become the person you want to be, it's not really faking at all!
xo
i understand where you're coming from. where i work, my colleagues always talk about dieting and how many pounds they'd like to lose, etc. etc... (they are all thinner than me, by the way and in no way overweight.) i find it difficult to add to their discussions or complain about my weight alongside them, because i don't want to make my weight into an issue that can be lightly talked about like that. (perhaps this situation is a bit different from your post, and i apologize if so.) i feel that yes, my weight IS an issue and i AM working on it, but i don't want to dwell on it (esp. with others who aren't even that close to me). in addition, although i do exercise to maintain my weight or burn calories, and i do count calories, i don't make this stuff public. because i too want to be the type of person who is carefree...
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