Blast from the Past

When I was in high school, my relationship with food was - imagine this - worse than it is now.  I was obsessed with exercising and with every piece of food I took into my body.

I spent every moment thinking about how many calories were going into my body and how many I was burning off.  Starting freshman year, I would do a 'wall sit' nonchalantly on the bus.  When I got home, I jogged and walked for 3 hours.  After homework I would spend two hours later that night at dance rehearsal.  When I got home, I would practice those dances for hours.  It was a non-stop exercising routine.  My calorie intake - even more extreme.

That's why the discovery I made yesterday was even more shocking.

I am asking questions at a local pageant tonight - so it's all about the glitz and glam.  Yesterday, I spent the morning trying on all of my dresses.  That's when I remembered my beautiful homecoming dress from senior year in high school.  As I was digging it out, I came across two other dresses - none other than my prom dresses!

I put my junior prom dress - or should I say garbage bag.  It was unbelievable.  I guess I just didn't realize how much bigger I was when I was in high school.  The difference is really only about 10 pounds, but I feel healthier than ever.

I may not be eating the perfect number of calories each day, but I'm eating when I'm hungry.  I'm choosing baby carrots rather than a bag of chips.  But eating a bag of chips isn't wrecking my food-related day.  I finally feel like a normal person, well at least, I' feel like I'm closer to being a normal person - not being obsessed with every piece of food I eat.